Hi There. My names katie, Im Emz friend. I started my diet on Monday, i was 1lb under 20st, when i weighed in on Monday. I have done really well this week.
Im not following WW this time, i have joined a Gyn , ive been there 3 times this week and i am following their diet plan.
After 4 days i feel more energetic ( lil bit achey) and brighter its amazing. I have had no crap food as i call it, choccie, crips, cake, biccies or processed food etc
Ive took the hard route but im sticking to it.
I'll keep you updated on my progress, daily. Ill give you an idea of what ive eaten and what exercise i have done.
Mondays My weigh in so watch this space.
I also want to add:
What is it about being fat?? Do I have a sign on my head saying freak? Yes I may not be a size 8, but I am still human, and have a personality, which many skinny people do not have.
People look at you walking down the street, you can see what they are thinking by the looks on their faces, some are sneering thanking god they are not as fat as me, and thanking him that they can fit into the latest fashion with ease. Others have a look of sympathy on their faces “oh look at her it must be awful for her being like that”.
What makes me angry is that they don’t think there may be other reasons people are fat other than stuffing themselves with fast food and cake. I get “oh you don’t eat that much do you” I can tell they are dying to add, “so why are you so fat” as if I eat as little as possible when out and then proceed home to my trough when I get home like a pig.
People have shouted things in the street, like chunky, fatty etc. Must admit its mostly young childish and immature boys. My family say ignore them they are not worth it. But the truth is it hurts to the core. I HAVE FEELINGS!!
SELF CONFIDENCE is non-existent, I have none, and oh sure people think I am confident, but that’s a cover. I’m the girl who puts herself down before anyone else gets a chance. I bet half the time they aren’t thinking any such thing. But I have no self-belief what so ever. I don’t buy myself nice clothes, its getting the stage where I don’t even put my make up on and go out the house if I don’t have to.
It took all my guts to go to an all womens gym and sign up, but luckily i chose the right one, plenty of normal people to balance out the ones that think they are gods gift in lycra.
This young girl showed me round, and i was really quiet, i could feel it. Agian lack of confidence, making me feel im not as good as her cause im fat.
Well decided last sunday that that was the last day I would feel like that,i am the one keeping myself from what i want. as well as this damn PCOS.
I have stopped myself eating the bad food this week by asking myself, do i really want that chocolate more than i want a baby??? answer is no, so i put it down.
This may sound cheesey but having the will power to say NO!! to something you really want to eat, feels alot better than eating it. I am training my body for the next few weeks to eat less, food but healthier food. because looking at it i was eating alot, spread out throughout the day. Its always someones birthday at work, so cakes are bought, and friday is bancon or sausage sarnie day!! Not any more. I have a 6 week program and i am determined not to stray!!
Katie xx
